Monday, June 12, 2006
had a nice chat on msn wif my cousin yesterday...quite a long chat... i was totally stunned when my cousin asked me a qn" do u feel lonely at home?" because i do feel lonely at times.Although i had a childish bro, but he always returned home late at night, if it is not holi, i seldom get 2 c him... my parents will oni b back at ard 6 smth or even ltr...sometimes, i reali feel damn lonely at home, esp durin holis....e hse is always empty in e mornin n afternoon.....n i always feel bored...facin e four walls... i nvr reali mention my loneliness 2 any1... yet my cousin can sense it... cause whenever my cousins come 2 my hse, i will chat alot n play wif them.. he can sense tt i feel sad whenever he leaves... n i do feel tt way.... i mus say tt he is sensitive, cause no1 noticed it.....my parents always thought tt i luv being alone, cause there's freedom... but is tt reali so??? last time, i reali feel depressed tt i'm always alone... but i dun reali feel it now... cause i kinda get used to it.... is e youngest child always get 2 b e 1 evry1 adores? protects? y to me, it seems tt i hav 2 b e most independent 1.....to others, i reali dun look like e youngest child...in fact e youngest among all my cousins....there's no1 younger than me, oni my nieces n nephew.....puzzlin..................... my status jus dun match my character.... funny huh
Monday, June 12, 2006